Grief, Love and Loss​

My spiritual growth has helped me through the shock of last week…on Monday, March 11th at 1:15am, my beautiful mom’s spirit was ready to leave this world, she passed away peacefully in her sleep. I reached out on Facebook to share this news, and received so much support; my post read:

 

My mom, she’s passed away this morning, they said cardiac arrest, and she passed in her sleep, I know her lovely spirit is with me now and always, her love and her light shines for us in eternity. I love you mom!

 

We’ll have a mass for mom this Friday at 11:00am at St. Collette Catholic Church 330 W 130th St, Brunswick, OH 44212 followed by a Celebrate her Life luncheon at the Fraternal Order of Eagles 349 Pearl Rd, Brunswick, OH 44212.

 

Thank you for your love and prayers and kind words. Mom lives on in our story, my wild and free mama is soaring with the Angels now and I’m sure having a blast in her new spiritual plane! Love you mama!

 

Thank you to our amazing friends and family for helping us today, I’d be lost without you, our family is wrapped in love and help, thank you!

 

If you’d like please post or text me pics I’m gathering memories and photos, stories and happy times, mom loved smiling and dancing and singing and celebrating life - mom you’re with us and we love you!!! I’m in Brunswick all week and can be reached at 216-704-3246 or message me - thank you!

 

I spent the week with family and friends, and received so many texts, pictures, calls, and stories about my mom, Diane Collins. Together with my husband, Chuck, my brother, Christopher, and our dad, Larry, we planned a Catholic Funeral Mass and a Celebration of Life luncheon. The mass at St. Colette’s was so beautiful. Father Bob from St. Ambrose said the mostly lovely words and spoke to mom’s love for life. Deacon Tom helped us plan the mass, my aunts helped choose the readings (my brother Chris read the first reading and I read the second reading – so hard by the way, I was tearful but then felt love and light as I continued, it was a very special moment).

 

Being surrounded by so much love, and by the people who loved her, helped me tremendously. I never felt alone, I always felt loved and supported. In choosing songs and readings for mass, we would read each one aloud until it felt and sounded like mom, we all could hear her and feel her in the words we read aloud. Mom loved music, the organist and the singer at church were fantastic. I was so moved when she sang “In the Garden,” mom was known in the community and among our family and friends for her love of flowers and plants, and her amazing garden and intuitive green thumb. She made everything beautiful.  

 

I was moved by the sea of loving faces at mass, and hugs from friends and family I haven’t seen for many years. Life takes us in many directions, and this event brought us together in love and in memory of my amazing mama.

 

Connection and love – that was a resounding theme all week. Our close family friends helped to plan the amazing celebration of life luncheon. I would have been lost without the group texts from friends and family to help organize food, photos, flowers, and all the details that went into this event. I’m grateful to the Eagles club for honoring my mom, and hosting the event; I’m so grateful to Carol and the ladies who cooked the delicious meal. We ate food and shared stories about mom, and it was nice being together again, it had been a while since we’d all been together.

 

I felt mom was with me the whole week, especially at night when it was hard to sleep. She was 67 when she passed; 6 + 7 = 13, one of our special numbers. She would have been 68 on Wednesday. It was hard waking up on her birthday, I would call her and sing her happy birthday, and we’d talk about our day and plan our next mother-daughter get together; we were talking about going to Sedona, I just got back from a girls-trip in Sedona and it was amazing. I’m so glad we had so many memories together, she was so easy to talk to. I loved looking through pictures of her life; grade school, school dances, parties, vacations, all the hair styles and fashion she rocked in her 20’s and 30’s. She lived life fully, and was unapologetically and authentically herself.

 

My beautiful mama, Diane, touched so many lives, we will miss you and we love you.

 

Xoxo,

Lauren